For Jessica

For Jessica

You lived your life one step at a time,
Lived for the moment
And never looked back.
Are you looking back on us now?
I’d like to think you can hear us
When we’re talking to you still,
When we’re cursing God for stealing you away.
When they told us, I was numb,
Then sad, depressed, angry at everything.
I sat in my chair and waited til everyone else was gone
But the pain didn’t come.
I held my friends while they sobbed
But the tears didn’t come.
But yesterday, standing in the crowd of your friends and family,
Gathered around that hole in the ground
Watching your mother break down when she saw your coffin,
I lost it, Jess, I lost it.
I found my tears, my heart broke.
And when I think about it, it all seems so unfair,
So unreal.
Why you? Why now?
You hadn’t even begun to live,
But you changed all our lives
In the short time we were blessed with your presence.
You helped me find my wings,
And now I know God has given you yours.