Mine

Mine

2:48 AM, and the seconds tick by
like sentinels on the LED
while my eye’s fixed on the sky.
I heard the sound of summer rain
It lasted maybe 5 minutes,
a short pattering refrain.
The sound of fan blades spinning
reminds me how I should be sleeping
but every shadow on my wall
leads to poetic inspiration
and I’m counting in my head,
an unsettling distraction.

Oh, love. Oh, love.

I didn’t mean
to cause a scene.
Oh, but falling takes no time.
I couldn’t perceive
what I never believed.
Oh, how did you end up mine?
Oh, how did you end up mine?

Somewhere past 3 o’clock and still no luck
with keeping my mind silent
and getting my eyes shut.
The music in my head keeps
telling me I’m losing track of
any kind of grip I might have had,
But it doesn’t seem to matter
nothing seems to matter
but the feeling that I could touch the sky
without ever knowing why.

Oh, love. Oh, love.

I didn’t mean
to cause a scene.
Oh, but falling takes no time.
I couldn’t perceive
what I never believed.
Oh, how did you end up mine?
Oh, how did you end up mine?

How did you find me through the haze,
all those lonely days
the unforgiving places I’ve been.
How did you know just where I’d be,
how to capture me
inspire me,
take hold of me.

Oh, love. Oh, love.
Oh-OH-oh love.

I didn’t mean
to cause a scene.
Oh, but falling takes no time.
I couldn’t perceive
what I never believed.
Oh, how did you end up mine?
Oh, how did you end up mine?

Oh, how did you end up mine?

It Will Always Stain

“And love, just like blood, will always stain.”

Look at me.
I’m a horrible distraction (what a mess)
my hands are covered
(in blood).
Oh, sweet sweet baby,
I did it for you
(don’t you know?)
Don’t turn away, please.
I don’t have anywhere else to go.


Didn’t you realize
this was all (just a lie)?
Called you irresponsible
and you labeled me
a whore.
(shh don’t let them know
you’ve got a horrible tongue).
Well I’m always wrong to you
(Mr. center of attention)
Why couldn’t you just save me?
I got too wrapped up in myself,
(such glamour and lies)
I lost control of my mind.
But everyone makes mistakes
(the universe slowly spins) I apologize.
Now would you hand me
hand me over.
I’m not fooling around anymore,
now I just want love.


It crashes down on my head,
Everything I ever wanted
(you).

Little Girl

Little Girl

Little girl of ribbon and lace,
you too will grow older.
You’ll abandon your playthings,
find your place.
Oh, you will grow colder.

Nothing is certain,
of that I am sure.
Someday you will learn
what everything means,
even if it still doesn’t
make much sense.
And you will work
to find your place in this world,
through struggles and hard times.
And when you think you can’t go on,
you can.

Little girl of ribbon and lace,
you too will grow older.
Please stay a child as long as you can.
Oh, you will grow colder.

Crave

Crave

Curve of hip
he grasps,
her back arches.
Lips collide,
hair tangling.
Sliver of stomach,
thighs part,
she wraps a leg around him.
He trails his lips
over the graceful curve of her neck,
downward.
She sighs.
Together they find rhythm.
Together they find love.

Value

Value

If I were good at painting,
I would paint you like the Mona Lisa:
beguiling & smiling so mysteriously.
If I were good at sculpting,
I would sculpt you
into the shape you always wanted,
and you’d finally be happy with yourself.
If I were good at feelings,
I would tell you how much you mean to me,
how much I value you being in my life,
and how much I am going to miss you.
But I am only a writer,
so I will try to put this all down in words
and hope you somehow understand.

I Miss You

I Miss You

I miss you when you’re not here.
I miss your smile,
your easy laugh,
the solid warmth of your hand in mine.
I even miss the feel of your leg next to mine,
the way you mumble “sorry”
when you step on my foot,
and how you kiss my forehead and my hand.
I miss the way you talk so easy
about stuff I usually blush about,
but with you it all seems just right,
the way you make me open up,
the way you make me feel so loved.

Read

Read

You read me like a book.
Am I really that obvious?
Do you really notice
how I blush, even in the dark,
when your hand touches my leg?
And your fingers, when they trace over mine,
do they feel the bitten cuticles
where all my worries go to rest?
Do you notice how I get jealous,
how I get angry over petty things?
Do you notice when I’m online
and you’re sitting on the other end of the computer screen,
ignoring me?
Do you read me at all?

Far Away

Far Away

Fall away from me,
hands are slipping.
Hearts grasp tightly,
refusing to let go.
Where are you now?
Now that you’ve been torn from my side,
the stitches unraveling
leaving me to bleed
unconscious,
without you.
You’re too far away
I cannot hear your heartbeat.

Straight to You

Straight to You

My heart knows all
the endless pathways.
It travels through a labyrinth
of sneering faces
and jeering, unforgiving stares.
It knows its way
upways and longways,
downways and frontways,
swimming through an endless ocean,
skimming over dreaming lovers,
traveling straight to you.

Still Here

Still Here

One more kiss,
before you leave me lonely.
Please don’t speak
I know I’m not your only.
It’s not that I want you to leave,
it’s just I know you’re going anyway.
So I only want something to hold onto
when you stay gone for days.

You keep telling me you love me,
but when I lay awake alone
I can’t help but wonder
what is it you can’t see?

I know where you go
when you leave me here.
I’ve smelt the perfume,
I’ve heard the phone calls, dear.
You don’t need to make excuses
I’m not going anywhere.
God knows why but
I stay here.

Maybe I just can’t
imagine being without you.
I couldn’t bear the thought
of never holding you.
So even though I know
I’m sharing you with some other girl,
It’s better than living without you
and feeling lost in the world.

I keep telling you I love you,
but when I lay awake alone,
I can’t help but wonder
if you really love me too.

I know where you go
when you leave me here.
I’ve smelt the perfume,
I’ve heard the phone calls, dear.
You don’t need to make excuses
I’m not going anywhere.
God knows why but
I stay here.

I stay here
through all the good times bad times push comes to shove
because deep down inside my heart
I still somehow believe in love.

I know where you go
when you leave me here.
I’ve smelt the perfume,
I’ve heard the phone calls, dear.
You don’t need to make excuses
I’m not going anywhere.
God knows why but
I’m still here.

Ghost (Rewritten 2006)

Ghost

I’m hovering over your head tonight
watching you crying in the fading twilight.
Sitting in a pile of flowers by my grave,
praying for a soul you never could save.
You’re holding in your hands a faded note,
reading over and over the words that I wrote.
Can you feel my own tears falling down?
they’re soaking every lover in this town.

Pre-Chorus
I’m reading over your shoulder
lines you hoped never to see.
A broken message that only grows older,
baby, just forget me.

Chorus
You’re chasing a ghost,
nothing but a ghost.
Searching in the most
unfortunate places
Still hoping to find traces
of what we were.

You’ve gone too long with no sleep,
what is this constant vigil you keep?
Are you hoping that it’s all a dream?
Are you really as desperate as you seem?
Is there no way to break the spell,
to help distract you from your hell?
Don’t you know I’m here with you
waiting for you to give in too.

Pre-Chorus
I’m reading over your shoulder
lines you hoped never to see.
A broken message that only grows older,
baby, just forget me.

Chorus
You’re chasing a ghost,
nothing but a ghost.
Searching in the most
unfortunate places
Still hoping to find traces
of what we were.

Far away,
I’m so far away now.
Heaven is nothing next to you
But I’ll get by somehow.
The wind blows me away,
I guess I’m here to stay.

Chorus
You’re chasing a ghost,
nothing but a ghost.
Searching in the most
unfortunate places
Still hoping to find traces
of what we were.

Falsehoods and Deceptions: The Art of Giving Up in the End Version 2

Falsehoods and Deceptions: The Art of Giving Up in the End

So you’re life’s not perfect,
So you’re living a lie,
You’re struggling to hold on.
Everything comes to an end,
Everyone must die,
In the end there’s no right or wrong.

Pre-Chorus 1
Giving up is not your only option,
Never succeeding,
While your heart is bleeding.
Where’d your common sense flee to?

Grit your teeth and bear it,
Don’t complain just forget it,
It’s not worth the fight.
Keep your eyes on the sky,
Waiting for your Armageddon,
Waiting for the time to be right.

Pre-Chorus 2
Giving up is not your only option,
never moving,
never proving.
Where’d your common sense flee to?

Chorus –
Your life’s a bittersweet reflection,
of watching ripples fade into the ocean,
of trying to find your place in time.
You struggle on and try to make a difference
they tell you that you must be kidding,
but never give up until it feels just right,
don’t believe all their lies.

Clear your mind and clear your soul,
learn to live with self-control,
you can get it right.
Keep your head up keep on learning,
as long as there’s fire keep on burning,
keep on moving towards the light.

Pre-Chorus 1
Giving up is not your only option,
Never succeeding,
While your heart is bleeding.
Where’d your common sense flee to?

Shut your eyes it’s just too much,
You just can’t bear another’s touch,
But it’s just too late to start over.
Close your ears to all their lies
Don’t accept no alibis,
In the end they’ll be the ones finding out.

Pre-Chorus 2
Giving up is not your only option,
never moving,
never proving.
Where’d your common sense flee to?

Chorus –
Your life’s a bittersweet reflection,
of watching ripples fade into the ocean,
of trying to find your place in time.
You struggle on and try to make a difference
they tell you that you must be kidding,
but never give up until it feels just right,
don’t believe all their lies.

Eyes Wide Open

Eyes Wide Open

Keep your eyes wide open when you kiss me,
for once, let me see into your soul
no walls between us,
no excuses, no cover stories, no alibis, no lies.
Can’t you see I just want to get in
when you keep shutting me out?
Nothing I can say could make you drop all your defenses
and stop pretending to be so strong.
Don’t you understand?
I just want to know the real you:
heart, mind, body and soul.
That’s all.