Dear Jess -

Dear Jess -

Dear Jess –
I woke up today,
I’m grateful that I did.
I know there could be so much more
Worse things than what I’ve been dealt.
I thought of you
And still this all seems so unreal.
I can’t believe I’ll never
See your beautiful smile again,
Not until I walk through those pearly gates,
That is.
I can’t imagine your mother’s grief,
Though I witnessed it on Sunday.
We miss you, girl,
We always will.
You shouldn’t be gone.
18 years, my god,
You were just so young
It’s just so wrong.
Why you? Why now?
I guess God has bigger plans.
I hope you’re watching us,
I know you are.
You’re up there in Heaven,
Chilling with God,
Watching us all mourn
And telling us to get on with our lives.
Jess – we love you,
You should still be here,
But you’re not
And the world is empty without you,
Dark without the light of your smile,
Cold without the warmth of your heart.
It might seem silly to write to you
But need to
Cuz I still need you.
You took me under your wing,
Lost soul that I was,
And helped me to flourish.
You helped me learn to fly.
Now you’re the one flying,
Holding us all in your angel’s grasp
And smiling that magnificent smile of yours.