So Goodbye Then

So Goodbye Then

Meaning is shallow,
like the barrel of the gun
you hold to my head.
Like the ticking of the clock,
the click of the safety.
Time has slowed,
down to just you and me.
You, me, and the bullet
that waits patiently
to bury itself in my brain.
What have I to lose,
to truly miss?
You never cared for me,
never loved me.
No one ever did.
They always ran
at the first sign of affection.
My life has been an endless
array of running, of rejection.
So pull the trigger,
I fear no explosion,
it's nothing new.
I am no longer a threat,
with this slug in my skull.
So goodbye then.