Why Did You Love Me For So Long?

Why Did You Love Me For So Long?

Why did you love me for so long?
You held my hand and looked into my eyes,
and I couldn’t help but wonder
just what it is you saw.
My hair isn’t long & blonde,
my body isn’t slim and graceful as a willow tree.
I cannot mold myself to the ways of the fashion zombies,
much as I try, hiding behind my oversized shades
striving to achieve perfection.
Every time you kissed my lips
I was wondering,
is this real? Am I dreaming?
That time in the car
when I sang to you in my clear voice,
every note resounding through the front seat.
I meant every word.
You sang back to me,
“After all, you’re my wonderwall,”
and now I can’t listen to that song
without seeing your deep brown eyes gazing into mine,
without feeling your lips on my shoulder.
Why did you love me for so long,
and where did it all go?
When did you decide there wasn’t a connection any longer?
When did it become so clear
that you could no longer pretend,
could no longer deny?
Why didn’t I ever see it coming?