Rainbow (My Personal Statement)

Rainbow
(This poem was my original Personal Statement for college apps but I had to change it. Now I post it here.)

Rainbows have no beginning and no end,
an unexpected surprise from above
delighting us with their colors.
They are never the same,
different to everyone who beholds them.
Every time you see a rainbow
it’s unique.
You can’t touch a rainbow,
you can’t reach behind one.
They are light,
existing only in the eyes of those
who see them.
I am a rainbow.
No one sees me the same as you do,
I am unique to all who behold me.
You only see what you want to see,
sometimes only individual colors.
But I am not just red, just orange,
just yellow or green,
just blue or indigo or violet.
There is a rainbow that nobody knows,
a rainbow you can’t touch,
can’t see behind or around.
It has no end,
it stretches on forever.

Orange is my façade.
Student trying to do my best
Daughter trying to please
Friend sharing secrets and laughter.
Face in the crowd,
Identity guarded.
Face veiled in secrecy.

Yellow is my joy.
Writing that flows
without barriers.

Indigo.
Girls just wanna have fun.
Falling at the mall,
Face hurting from laughing,
Inside jokes.
Random, spontaneous
people I hang with.
Sing like no one’s listening.

Violet.
Unconditional love.
Eyes like open doors
into an animal’s soul.

Blue.
Waking to rain, inspiration fleeting.
Teardrop reflections,
Open my eyes to blackness.
Pressure
weighing on my mind.
Fear of walking out my door.
Nothing as simple
as it used to be.

Green
Insecurity, jealousy,
Gossip, afraid,
Angry, shy,
Impatient, death,
Thunderstorms, scary movies,
Depression,
Rejection.

Red.
The girl in the glimmering gown,
Fearless,
Confident.
At home with the bright lights,
when nothing else matters.
Just me and the audience,
No regrets.

Maybe you’ve never seen it.
It’s only there
when the lights shine brightly,
when I’m blinded
and everyone’s eyes are on me.
When I step onto the stage,
and my true colors shine,
and my essence is there
made up of all those colors,
those colors that make me whole.